I’ve found it, the thing that’s going to be my greatest hardship relating to the WAND. It’s not aching muscles, thirst, insect bites, sore feet, sweaty feet, blistery feet, or anything that would qualify as enemy number one for a reasonable person.
It’s sleeping on my back.
I am a natural side sleeper. I HATE sleeping on my back. A few years ago, I tried to make the switch because it’s supposed to be the healthiest way to sleep. After many miserable nights, I more or less adjusted, but I never got fully comfortable with it. So I fell back into sleeping on my side, which may not be ideal health-wise or beauty-wise, but feels so heavenly on my memory foam bed.
On the WAND, however, there will be no memory foam. I will be sleeping on the hard ground, with only a relatively thin foam pad as cushioning. If I sleep on my side, my hip bone and arm will not thank me – they will make me regret it. So I’ve decided to switch once again to sleeping on my back, until our journey is over.
Last night I only lasted twenty minutes or so on my back before rolling over to one side, feeling like a failure despite what was genuinely a good faith effort. Trying to fall asleep on my back just feels so awful. I feel like I’m lying in a coffin or on a slab at the morgue, or like I’m about to do the Pilates 100. And what do I do with my arms? When I rest them at my sides, it increases the coffin/morgue sensation. When I put them on my stomach, they annoy me by going up and down with my breathing. The more I tried to relax, the more a panicky feeling welled up inside me. My body, almost in physical pain, cried out to make a quarter turn, and eventually I couldn’t stand it any more.
Will tonight be better? Does anyone out there have tips, or words of sympathy? Although I may seem like a whiner, making a big deal out of something small, even those twenty minutes didn’t feel small at all. But relearning to sleep on my back seems be a necessary ordeal. I simply won’t have space in my pack for a pad thick enough to allow me to sleep on my side night after night. I have no choice but to bite the bullet on this one.